Idlemind

"I've always been afraid of losing people I love. Sometimes I wonder, is there anyone out there afraid to lose me?"

"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light."

"One best book is equal to hundred good friends, but one good friend is equal to a library."

"I get the best feeling in the world everytime you say hi and smile at me."

"It hurts so bad to be away from you."

"A bestfriend is someone who knows you're crazy and still loves you."

 "I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when somethimg is troubling me, because you're the only one whounderstands me so well. I miss ou when I laugh and cry, because I k ow that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of THE BEST MEMORABLE TIMES OF MY LIFE..."

"Sometimes you just need a good cry. Even if you don't know the reason why you'r crying." 

Great firends are hard to find, difficultto leave, impossible to forget.

A true friend is someone who never gets tired of listening to your pointless dramas over and over again. 

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you nedd a friend, I'll just be me...

-- anonymous

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Remedies

                           

• “And oh she had been broken. She hid it well, but Ross knew from personal experience that once you had put the pieces together, even though you might look intact, you were never quite the same as you'd been before the fall”  ― Jodi Picoult, Second Glance

• “It's harder to heal than it is to kill.” ― Tamora Pierce

• “Imperfection is simply not a good enough excuse to have someone keep hurting you just because they feel like it.” ― Pandora Poikilos, Excuse Me, My Brains Have Stepped Out

• “You know how I get angry sometimes? That's because it's the only way I can still feel. And I need to test myself, to make sure I'm really here.” ― Jodi Picoult, Sing You Home

• “Remember that grief is a necessary pain. It’s your only way to heal. To starve it will destroy you.”~The Grimoire” ― S. M. Boyce, Lichgates

• “I don’t want to be in pain anymore. I want to be done, to be left unburdened and naked, to tear the hurt off my body like layers of clothes. At the end of the trail I stop and bend forward, hands on my knees, to catch my breath. I’m not healed, but for this moment, I’m better.” ― Kerry Cohen, Loose Girl: A Memoir of Promiscuity

• “Healing wasn’t always the best thing. Sometimes a hole was better left open. Sometimes it healed too thick and too well and left separate pieces fused and incompetent. And it was harder to reopen after that.” ― Ann Brashares, The Last Summer

Irony

There are some wounds that can heal only by deepening them and making them worse.
-Auguste Villiers L'Isle-Adam

Away

“The wounds that never heal can only be mourned alone.” 
― James Frey, A Million Little Pieces

Is There Anyone Out There

You can say goodbye,

To all the things that you have ever known.

You can say goodbye,

And leave behind the life that you have grown.

What's the point?

You try to start from scratch, but get let down,

You can say goodbye, Just to realise there's no-one left around.

So what am I fighting for.

Tell me

Is there anybody out there,

Am I swimming through this empty sea alone,

Am I looking for an answer

Or am I trying to find a way to get back home.

Is there anybody out there, 

Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried,

I'm looking for an answer

And just trying to find a way to survive.

You can live or die,

Without the chance to find out what your worth,

You can live or die,

And never find the one that she'd deserve,

You can walk alone,

And live behind the shadows in your heart,

You can say goodbye

Or live and  find out you've been alone right from the start

So what am I fighting for.

Tell me

Is there anybody out there,

am I swimming through this empty sea alone,

Am I looking for an answer,

Or am I trying to find a way to get back home.

Is there anybody out there,

Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried, 

I am looking for an answer

And just trying to find a way to survive.

Never thought I would end up all alone,

Every day I am feeling further away from home,

I can't catch my breath, but I am holding on.

Is there anybody out there, 

is this the last time I have to say goodbye,

Am I staring at my future,

Is it time to take charge of my life,

Is there anybody out there

Am I swimming through this empty sea alone,

Am I looking for an answer,

or am I trying to find a way to get back home,

Is there anybody out there,

Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried,

I am looking for an answer,

And just trying to find a way to survive,

a way to survive, and I am holding on.

Is there anybody out there

Secondhand Serenade

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Secondhand Serenade

[ From: http://www.elyrics.net ]

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I just can't fall asleep. There's just too much to think.

I NEED TO RANT!

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"Me, myself, and I. Who knows the real me? I thought you knew? If you can't understand me, well then I'm sorry. I'm just not easy to get along with in the first place. I'm irrational, a sociable introvert if there is such, a b*tch who knows nothing but to inflict pain on others and an unthoughtful person who only thinks of herself."

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THAT WAS HER BEFORE.

Before  SHE met you, all of you. 

She was selfish, never considering what others think and feel. She play along with them, but stab them like a murderer once they turn their backs on her. Cursed them for breaking their promises. Hated them for letting her feel loved and secured but hurting and leaving her the moment She grew dependent on them. It was a harsh thing for someone whose still At the age of seven. I still rememeber when she happily celebrated her seventh birthday only to lose someone important after 2 months and another someone, who promised to stay with her throughout everything, after a year. She still waited though. Only to be disappointed after yet again, another year. 

At a very young age, pain became her 2nd bestfriend. At a very young age, she studied how to hurt others before she got hurt herself.

I still remember how She face the mirror every chance She get to practice how to smile and laugh like nothing's wrong. It was crazy, but helpful. No one noticed ow she faked her smile. She became the cheerful and playful person every schoolmates and teachers knew. She grew up deceiving herself and the people around her. Being friendly and all. Laughing around, fooling around, and doing her best at school. Spending her time inface with books just to free her mind whenever her little secret starts attacking.

But she was somewhat saved. Meeting two vibrant stars, which she can't remember how, she started breaking her walls one by one. Her smiles became genuine, her laugh resounded happily, her eyes started showing emotions. She once again came back 1/2 of her old self. 

And so her life goes on... 

Entering highschool was a different story, once again she started drifting somewhere, meeting other people, somewhat forgetting her stars. She joined a group but ended up getting dump. But she was fine. It was ok. 

She came back to her stars which at that time, have their own groups also. Nevertheless she was ok. Flying around in circles, going through various groups, spending time with other people. Just doing what a normal sociable person would do. 

Her life was in joy especially when her stars multiplied albeit the conflicts and misunderstandings. 

She learnt alot from those stars. She loves them more than anything. She treated them as family, she cared for them in whatever she knew she can.

But everything felt surreal.

Surely, nothing lasts forever.

Now, again, she felt alone. As much she hates it, her irrational side is taking over. Especially now, there are no excuses, they will be going on, facing different ways. She clearly hates it. Hates the fact that everything she worked hard for would go to waste. Her open secret would become her little secret again. She hates everything. 

How can she live without them? I know she wouldn't be able to handle a life without them. She swears that she would rather kill herself than spend a life away with them.

But that would be absurd. She knew that.

Killing isn't the only option.

There's one last option. Do it like how you did it before.

Hurt them before you get hurt.

Leave them before they broke their promises.

Give them up before they give up on you.

Simple. Live your life the way it was, Just like before.

If that's possible. Anyways, there's no option left for you. Either way you are going to get hurt. Just do what will make you feel better. Right?

FEEDYOURSELF NO MORE LIES. FACE IT. 

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"AND I THINK I'm gonna welcome it back sooner or later..."

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~"nobody would understand you completely, you yourself can't understand what you're going through, at times

Irrationalism

I should probably be sleeping now.
It's past my bedtime, but I'm hungry. 
So of course I have to eat.

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I was wrong I know. But can you help it? Humans are born inline with sins.
I'm a human and it's only human to commit mistakes. 
"You have a choice" 
I honestly don't have a choice, I chose a wrong option before, complicating trivial things right now. I may have a choice but either choices will hurt the both of us. What more can I do? Sulk every now and then? Ignore and pass you out every minute? Treat you like some random stranger? 

Killing myself was a better option. But that would be to absurd. 

So before I hurt everyone else, this would be the last resort I have. The only option I have.

In advance I'm sorry.

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It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm so blind or maybe we're the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
'Cause everything we've been through
It's everything about you

Seem to be a lie, a countless, twisted lie
That made me learn to hate you
I hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this wayWe're better off this way
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All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way, hey

And every, everything isn't only what it seems
So hope these words that you never told me
It's time to say goodbye, it's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong

Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Tell me I, tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Goodbye

Secondhand serenade

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� JOHN VESELY PUBLISHING;

Songwriters: Vesely, John Joseph;

Can We Turn Back Time?

If this was any normal day, I would've let It pass. But no. A few hours from today it would be Christmas. The season to share love, joy, and hope. 

And I feel bad knowing that I can't even call you, can't even speak to you, nor greet you a very merry Christmas. How did we become like this? I mean, I know I am to be blamed but I just don't know how we came to be like strangers on the same boat.

Do you not loathe this feeling? Isn't it too much to bear? Don't you find it suffocating?  I can't believe we turned out like this? Is it mainly my fault? If  you think so? Can't you tell it to me? Can't you blame me? Can't you curse me or do shout or any of that sort? Can't you? I honestly can handle that much better than you being silent all the time, crying silently all the time, letting me speak all the time, letting me rant on you all the time, letting me do what I want all the time. That would be so much easier for me if you would only do that. Atleast I'll know how you feel, what you feel, what you want to say. Not like this, me trying to read your mind everytime you look in vain. 

Dear I am no mindreader. I'm insensitive neither. I do feel you but I can't read what's going through your mind. 

You asked howcome I don't speak when I'm hurting, but I did not give any answer. I fear that you won't understand, and take it in a wrong way. I can't tell you I'm hurting for sure you would ask me why. How can I tell you when the reason has always been you. I am hurting because I know I am hurting you. I just can't possibly say that. 

So yeah, I am sorry for hurting the both of us. I don't want to do this either.
I'm sorry for making things complicated. For making this difficult and overly dramatic. 


I do hope you have a very merry Chrismas. I do hope you would call me co'z I can't. 
I love you friend. Always rememeber that.

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"Sometimes you have to distance yourself to others not because you don't love them, but because there are things you have to face yourself"

What it Seems

Nothing's worst when you felt like crying and you don't even know why.

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WE JUST HAVE TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT SOMETIMES WE ARE THE ONE WHO needs to be OUT OF THE PICTURE.

It's Not The Same

I am here looking outside the window

letting myself to love this world’s beauty

trying to hide every single sorrow

uncertain how to and when to let go

These strange feelings the night has given me

kept me in wonder, till, I realized…

I keep missing the times that i should admit..

It’s not the same without you by my side…

Let Me Be

 

Let me cry even for awhile

For later I will fake a smile

Let me feel my emotions fly

For later I'll catch it and hide

Let me grieve for a little more

For my heart's beat has died before

Let me be Myself just today

For tomorrow I'll betray

oh please, pretty please

just once 'coz i will never be

The Way I Loved You

Loving you wasn't the easiest part of my life

yet leaving you is another..

Loving you was the most happiest moment I've had

yet leaving you would be the saddest..

Loving you every single day is the most painful days of my life

yet you never  took a glance of my feelings..

Loving you may be  the most foolish thing I've made

but that's the way i LoVed you...

The Hardest Thing in Life

I always wonder what is the most hardest thing in life....

I ask myself is it trying hard not to cry when you lost your favorite toy?

is it trying hard to be happy when your favorite dog die?

is it when you're trying to live your life when  you are abandoned by your own family...?

is it trying to forgive your bestfriend when s/he betrayed you?...

or..

is it when you're trying to move when  the person you love the most left you behind... hanging?

those were the questions that was raise in my head...

but now I understand.... that the hardest thing in life was the most simple things in people's eyes...

wanna know why???

try this....

live your life SIMPLY...

can you???