You can say goodbye,
To all the things that you have ever known.
You can say goodbye,
And leave behind the life that you have grown.
What's the point?
You try to start from scratch, but get let down,
You can say goodbye, Just to realise there's no-one left around.
So what am I fighting for.
Tell me
Is there anybody out there,
Am I swimming through this empty sea alone,
Am I looking for an answer
Or am I trying to find a way to get back home.
Is there anybody out there,
Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried,
I'm looking for an answer
And just trying to find a way to survive.
You can live or die,
Without the chance to find out what your worth,
You can live or die,
And never find the one that she'd deserve,
You can walk alone,
And live behind the shadows in your heart,
You can say goodbye
Or live and find out you've been alone right from the start
So what am I fighting for.
Tell me
Is there anybody out there,
am I swimming through this empty sea alone,
Am I looking for an answer,
Or am I trying to find a way to get back home.
Is there anybody out there,
Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried,
I am looking for an answer
And just trying to find a way to survive.
Never thought I would end up all alone,
Every day I am feeling further away from home,
I can't catch my breath, but I am holding on.
Is there anybody out there,
is this the last time I have to say goodbye,
Am I staring at my future,
Is it time to take charge of my life,
Is there anybody out there
Am I swimming through this empty sea alone,
Am I looking for an answer,
or am I trying to find a way to get back home,
Is there anybody out there,
Would you hear me if I screamed or if I cried,
I am looking for an answer,
And just trying to find a way to survive,
a way to survive, and I am holding on.
Is there anybody out there
Secondhand Serenade
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Secondhand Serenade
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I just can't fall asleep. There's just too much to think.
I NEED TO RANT!
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"Me, myself, and I. Who knows the real me? I thought you knew? If you can't understand me, well then I'm sorry. I'm just not easy to get along with in the first place. I'm irrational, a sociable introvert if there is such, a b*tch who knows nothing but to inflict pain on others and an unthoughtful person who only thinks of herself."
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THAT WAS HER BEFORE.
Before SHE met you, all of you.
She was selfish, never considering what others think and feel. She play along with them, but stab them like a murderer once they turn their backs on her. Cursed them for breaking their promises. Hated them for letting her feel loved and secured but hurting and leaving her the moment She grew dependent on them. It was a harsh thing for someone whose still At the age of seven. I still rememeber when she happily celebrated her seventh birthday only to lose someone important after 2 months and another someone, who promised to stay with her throughout everything, after a year. She still waited though. Only to be disappointed after yet again, another year.
At a very young age, pain became her 2nd bestfriend. At a very young age, she studied how to hurt others before she got hurt herself.
I still remember how She face the mirror every chance She get to practice how to smile and laugh like nothing's wrong. It was crazy, but helpful. No one noticed ow she faked her smile. She became the cheerful and playful person every schoolmates and teachers knew. She grew up deceiving herself and the people around her. Being friendly and all. Laughing around, fooling around, and doing her best at school. Spending her time inface with books just to free her mind whenever her little secret starts attacking.
But she was somewhat saved. Meeting two vibrant stars, which she can't remember how, she started breaking her walls one by one. Her smiles became genuine, her laugh resounded happily, her eyes started showing emotions. She once again came back 1/2 of her old self.
And so her life goes on...
Entering highschool was a different story, once again she started drifting somewhere, meeting other people, somewhat forgetting her stars. She joined a group but ended up getting dump. But she was fine. It was ok.
She came back to her stars which at that time, have their own groups also. Nevertheless she was ok. Flying around in circles, going through various groups, spending time with other people. Just doing what a normal sociable person would do.
Her life was in joy especially when her stars multiplied albeit the conflicts and misunderstandings.
She learnt alot from those stars. She loves them more than anything. She treated them as family, she cared for them in whatever she knew she can.
But everything felt surreal.
Surely, nothing lasts forever.
Now, again, she felt alone. As much she hates it, her irrational side is taking over. Especially now, there are no excuses, they will be going on, facing different ways. She clearly hates it. Hates the fact that everything she worked hard for would go to waste. Her open secret would become her little secret again. She hates everything.
How can she live without them? I know she wouldn't be able to handle a life without them. She swears that she would rather kill herself than spend a life away with them.
But that would be absurd. She knew that.
Killing isn't the only option.
There's one last option. Do it like how you did it before.
Hurt them before you get hurt.
Leave them before they broke their promises.
Give them up before they give up on you.
Simple. Live your life the way it was, Just like before.
If that's possible. Anyways, there's no option left for you. Either way you are going to get hurt. Just do what will make you feel better. Right?
FEEDYOURSELF NO MORE LIES. FACE IT.
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"AND I THINK I'm gonna welcome it back sooner or later..."
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~"nobody would understand you completely, you yourself can't understand what you're going through, at times
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