Why?

"Why"

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
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Why?
Avril Lavigne.

Photo credits goes to the rightful owner.
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I got addicted to the song and I badly wanted to post it..
Nyahahaha.
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Scars

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life
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Like a knife
Secondhand serenade
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Give Your Heart a Break

Today is the second day of a brand new year. Funny how I feel sad and agitated all this time

Anyways I just wanted to let out everything as in everything I wanted to say that I've been keeping all this time. I decided to give my heart a break this year.

So here goes my pointless drama...

To God...

Thank You.

Thank you for a wonderful year. Though 2012 wasn't that easy, still thank you. By now I have found the people who are true to me. Thank you very much for giving me such wonderful people by my side. Though I've not been a very good person last year, you still blessed me with people who stood still by my side and never left me once. Wahahaha they even forgot to look after themselves just to attend to my needs. Thank you Lord God for letting me have them. I can't promise to keep them, but I do hope you will. Please take care of them for me.

Nevertheless, there are still things that I want to be thankful about but that's the biggest thing I wanted to be thankful for.

XD

To my wonderful friends...

Thank You.

For all the times that we've been there for each other.

Seeing you smile makes me smile, seeing you appreciate the things I did for you makes me glad, seeing your troubled face makes me think a lot. Seeing how bad your mood is I get irritated too. Syempre nakakahawa naman talaga ang mood di ba?

Thank you for taking a big chunk in my life. I know I've been telling this to you for who knows how many times but that's how grateful am. I know I wasn't a good friend at all. I've been immature, insensitive, indecisive, promise-breaker, and a whole lot more, but I thank you for still keeping me and for correcting my mistakes out of concern. Hehehehehe.:))) thank you for tolerating me.


To bucha, my dearest apo, you know how I love you right? If you don't feel that I care for you I am sorry. There are things I can't do with you any longer like we used to, before. And for that I am sorry again. Just remember that I love you always ok? You're sexy and you know it. XD

To DEARLIE, hey, I am sorry for being harsh on you hahahahaha. It's just that I have to be like that... Anyways you are wonderful, thanks for being around. I love you always. Enjoy life to the fullest dear.. Wahahahaahahahahaha and thanks for the times that you refuted me. I AM TELLING YOU IT HELPED A BIT IN CHANGING MY MIND SET!

To mamkim, my magandang anak, don't be too good always. It's good to be nice but to let people abuse your kindness is not a very good thing. Hahah but i am not saying na maging kasing sama mo ako... Hahahahahaha. Just look after yourself ok? I love you always. YOU ARE ALWAYS WONDERFUL AND STRONG.

To danice, how ecchie, WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH I hope AND BELIEVE na ok na yung sa ating dalawa. Tae tol wahahahahahahahah tuwang tuwa ako nung pina hawak mo sa akin yung kamay mo noong Christmas party. XD.. Basta tol I love you... WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa.  aantayin ko yang pangako mong hanger.:*

To peach, jagi, oi babae wahahah a kahit bagong salta ka sa BSC mahal kita. XD. Keep doing what you love to do. Trust in yourself always ok...? Upakan kita pag Hindi. Look after yourself. I do hope you have a great time with bsc's company.xD. Have fun in life, stay strong and vibrant (oo commercial lang ng palmolive xD) keep up your attitude always.

To Baby Joy, betty, i really actually don't know what to say to you. You're very independent and self-reliant yet endearing. Mahal kita bitch! Don't hate nor blame your self for every failure that happened or may happen around you. Alam ko naman na wala kang pakielam sa nangyayare sa paligid mo in a sense na mabuti xD. keep calm and read BB okay? hahah jk basta no matter what happens wowae is here!!

 To Yurina, te kuri, I am not lying si tamia talaga kumanta ng officially missing you. Hahahah xD I love you and thanks for everything. Ikaw na palaging pina pranka ako pag Nagasabi ng kadramahan ko lalo na Kay tooooooot.. Wahahah Alam mo na YUN. XD salamat naitama na yung tornilyo ko sa ko kahit papaano. Gudluck sa Japan hayaan mo saglit lang tayung di magkikita!

To Caren, ano kailangan pa ba to? Hahaha. Basta tol hahHa eew.. Di ko masabi, basta ILY. XD . Kung ilalagay ko lahat ng ipagpapasalamat ko Sayo eh Baka ilang libro ang magawa ko kaya wag na lang. Basta salamat and stay healthy. LOOK AFTER YOURSELF OKAY? Hindi maganda yung palaging nakikinig, mamatay nalang ako wala ka pang sinasabi pano na yun? Joke. I Love You. Eto Lang men, "Words may sting but silence is what breaks the heart." learn to be vocal in every way possible.. it will help you in college.!

To Marie, baboy, ano ba sasabihin ko sayo? I love you but not as much as how FIFi loves you.xD I love you tol, salamat sa time sa pakikinig sa aking rantings. Salamat sa pagbabaon ng plastic. Hahahaha. Basta salamat. Mwahahahahahaha..:::***

To Alyssa, FIFi, hey fi! Thanks. Ikaw na very persistent. Kayo talaga ni Marie wahahaha. If not for you Baka namatay na ako kaka isip at sa pagiging malungkot xD... Sayang Lang epic fail ang suicidal attempt ko eh. Hahahahha. ;:)))) pero okay na din salamt fi.

To nanAy, salamat po nay. I love you. All the times na tinetext nyo ako, I have a big smile plastered on my face. Thanks for making me feel loved everytime. XD. Stay beautiful. And i hope na hindi ka iiyak ng hindi kaming mga anak mo ang kasama mo.

to those people mentioned above...

if not partly because of you di siguro ako makaka attend ng graduation... thank you guys for making me realize na kahit gaano pa karaming endings ang dumating sa buhay ko laging may bagong chapter na dadating... I hope na kasama kayo sa upcoming chapters pa ng buhay ko.
 and for letting me learn that not every people ay parehas. I have faith in you and I trust you... of course I LOVE YOU.

and lastly

I am sorry for causing such burdens to you guys.

now my faith in all of you is strengthened in a very huge manner, i actually never realize that you've been helping me in your own little ways... until now. ansama ko eh noh!

hahahahahaha


marami pa akong gustong sabihin sa inyo individually and i'll be sending it to you malamang individually... MAS MAHABA YUN! xD..
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This year I will remove everything that pained me last year. I will leave everything that brought pain to me. I will try to heal this year and the next years that will be coming.

This year I will do what's the best for my uncertain heart.

In advance I am sorry if there would be changes... and thank you for the memories we will be making pa,..

MANY THINGS MAY CHANGE BUT I DO HOPE THE ONLY CHANGE THAT CAN OCCUR TO OUR FRIENDSHIP IS THAT IT WILL GET BETTER AND STRONGER IN THE UPCOMING YEARS...!!!

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"In life there will always be things that you will regret but is better to stay that way."